Feb 28, 2004

Which Beautiful Woman Am I?

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Feb 25, 2004

ash wednesday

today is ash wednesday.and i have a lot to thank GOD for. i know i am so blessed, not just because of what He gives me but also for what He doesnt. sometimes i wonder why God loves me. it makes me feel awfully guilty yet thankful at the same time. while i unite myself with millions of catholics today, ash wednesday, w/c officially starts the lenten season, i pray that i can be the person God wants me to be and for once make HIm happy.

Feb 21, 2004

i spent the morning just hanging out at home- playing with RV and Migmig, watching some shows on tv. in the afternoon, ate aileen , grace and i went to the mall to finally catch the magic kitchen. and to my dismay, its not showin there anymore. disappointed w/ myself for always postponing my watchin it, i just couldnt believe that id let the whole movie, daos first ever, pass by just like that. ugh. the thought of not being able to support his movie, is such a disgrace to a self-proclaimed "certified-jerry yan-fan". Im not. hu hu hu... im sorry jerry. i am. i felt guilty watchin Milan as a substitute, though, i find the movie quite good. moreso, entertaining. im hoping to catch daos movie tom at Ever. im keeping my fingers crossed.

and if you think that all this watching is finished, well not yet. upon arriving home, i watched a movie again, starring denzel washngton. "John Cue" i think was the title. such a tearjerker. i cried a bucket the whole movie. its about fathers' unconditional love for his son who was about to die from a heart disease. he was willing to offer his heart and die. i swear it was so touching, i felt silly wiping my tears. i just couldnt help it. funny how some movie, those unknown to most people are really the good ones. those w/c will tear your heart and inspire you. "Simon Birch", "Lorenzos Oil", "Shawshank Redemption" and a lot more. not the usual moveis producers would wanna make. apparently they belong to my lists of favorite movies.

Feb 19, 2004

the day will come when DAO shall miss me

ha ha ha!! Dream on Angie! :p

ofcourse, its the other way around!

I MISS YOU DAO!!


Feb 18, 2004

confessions of jy junkies

In onlyjerry@yahoogroups.com, gaga-over-dao wrote:


"hi! wrote this way back and didn't have the courage to let anyone read it. now i feel more confident, stronger knowing that there are people out there like me, just plain gaga over dao :-) so here goes ...

I used to tease my sister who was so into MG and the F4 coz whenever she sees any one of them she screams and giggles and goes into euphoria (well, I’m exaggerating a little… just a little). I didn’t know who they were then and what the show was about, but still I teased her. She was so baduy and jologs, I thought.

Then I got to watch one episode on MG Rewind and I was hooked. Now, there’s collective screaming, giggling and sighing at 11.30 on weekends.

I saw JY and was hooked (pineapple hair and all). Oh, boy, was I hooked. I’ve always been drawn to the "maginoo pero medyo bastos" types and that was what DMS to me at first. I wasn’t content with MG Rewind and so I bought MG 1 and 2.

Who cares that our electric consumption jumped? Who cares that I sleep at 5am, wake up at 7 and go to work at 8? Just as long as I get to see JY/DMS. At this point, DMS and JY, for me, were interchangeable. My fascination hasn’t reach that point where I’d go surfing the net for him.

I didn’t go buy their posters nor plastic envelopes with their pictures on in. I didn’t go buy their playing cards nor their bath towels. But, I was slowly obsessing over JY. I was going over with a fine-toothed comb our newspapers at the office for even the minutest news on F4 esp. JY. I was doing those mini-movies in my mind where the highly improbable happens: I get to meet him in person and have a chance to talk to him and maybe a bouns kiss on the cheek :-)

Then I discovered that when I type "jerry yan" on my yahoo search bay. A plethora of sites open up. Portals all leading to JY are there. All I have to do is click and WHAM! All the details I want to know are there.

Now, I got to know who JY was. What he wants , what his ideals are, etc. I got a glimpse of JY the man. Someone who’s so much a departure from DMS. Now, I wasn’t only hooked. I was drugged.

I searched (still are) the internet for anything Jerry Yan. I enjoy talking about him to friends and family. I just can’t get enough of him. I have a Pepsi Poster, an MK poster and my phone home screen is Jerry Yan. I live and breath JY.

And now it has come full circle, my sister now teases me relentlessly about him. But, I don’t mind. I’m a fan. I’m entitled to be giggly, feel giddy and smile stupidly whenever I pass by his billboards along EDSA. I have the right to watch his debut film as many times as I want to... because i'm a fan.

Because, I'm a Jerry Yan fan and proud of it! :-)?"

what meteor catcher wrote in reaction to gaga- over-dao's confession:

"hi ms gaga-over-dao. : ) i know exactly how you feel. as in!!
I am into dao that i feel that he has become a part of my life.
I work in a call center so i arrive home from work at around 2 in the morning. Afterwhich, ill log into the computer, get the latest news, upload files, pix, videos even etc. I have actually completed downloaded evry song of the f4 into my fone. so when im bored i just lisen to it. Im so happy just passing by edsa knowing that ill be seeing there billboards. thank god for ben chan and pepsi and yamaha..and ofcourse abs cbn who has brought them into the philippines. I couldnt get enough of the f4, most esp dao, so i bought MG1 and MG2, Meteor Rain, went to their concerts almost dying of happiness, bought magazines and read them ofer and over again. ive grown to love his song- yao ding ni and all of their songs for that matter. the difference with me and you is that, I've grown to love dao, eversince they were first shown in the TV. I remember, rushing to get home just to watch it. And when the fone at home rang for me to answer, i wouldnt trade my watching of Meteor garden for anything. he he he. First thing that happened was I got addicted to MG and slowly, I developed a certain admiration for them all. on my part it has always been dao. I have been known as meteor garden fan at the office, i dont care what they think of me. Just like what you said, I'm a Jerry Yan fan and proud of it! :-). I love you dao!! I miss you!! Funny Im going crazy over him..and im even delighted that there are a lot of us who share the same feelings.

So cheers for you and me and the rest who the jerry yan fans!!
And ofcourse to you my beloved DAO, WO AI NI!!"



Feb 15, 2004

Gone Too Soon

There will always be tears in my eyes
when I remember everything about us.
Funny how often I used the word "us",
when it never even happened.
I ask myself why do you have to go away?
You left me holding on to a promised love
magical as the falling stars.
Did you not know that I've fallen in love with you too?
I was going to tell you that
but when I looked at you,
you were gone too soon...
I'd like to blame myself for this broken love
for I didnt let you know of my feelings right away.
Yet somehow, I know I did not let you go-
you let go of me.
Perhaps you did not see
how much I cared for you,
how I've dreamed about you,
how long I've waited for someone
like you to come into my life,
how happy I was when we talked over the phone
with just about anything-
the cottony clouds, the bluish mountains, those mushy love songs,
our loves, our mistakes,
our secret homes and dreams...

You let go of me, when you though Im never going to love you.
But I have loved you and kept it a secret.
I never did mean to fall for you
but I did.
And when I knew the moment has come,
you were gone to soon.
Gone to know of my feelings.
Gone to share it with me.
Gone like the swift falling stars
that has fallen to the earth
and left the sky crying a thousand lonely lights.
Suddenly gone.
You let go of me,
when you shouldn't have.

angie
may 2001


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1-2-3

I have totally lost it. Who am I kidding? Well, I have just, for the first time in my entire life, led a group of 3 friends, myself included, to walk out of a bar. Punchline, we did not pay the bill. AS IN WALKED OUT. I led them into it. I. Me. Myself. Angie. Whew! My heart pounding, hands perspiring, my feet dragging myself out of the bar. Or rather, my insanity dragged my always-sane-me to get out. Fast. Its not even about the money. Omigosh, I have totally lost my wits! My insanity got over the very logical me. That fast and easy. Ha ha ha! When we were quite far already, we didnt even bid goodbye to each other. We just picked a cab and went home. After awhile, when I was inside the taxi, Kathy texted me, "congratulations!" - yeah right, there goes my partner in crime. Well, honestly, she actually gave me the idea. Not that I'm blaming her, coz it was still me who stood up and really did it. 1-2-3 , her name for it. Now, that Im home, blogging this whole thing, theres nothing else i can think about but the word - KARMA! Yep, Ms. goody-two-shoes, B-E-W-A-R-E!!

Feb 14, 2004

im one person whos never been that excited over valentines day. when i say never, i mean never. A day in the year when people turn so mushy, sometimes i couldnt stand it.

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here's another emode test i took "which Friend are you?"

Um, ok! You're, like Phoebe. Ok, so you may not have Phoebe's, well, special intuition or, um, musical talent. But, like everyone's favorite beautiful-blond-psychic-masseuse, you never lie and your friends are the most important thing in your life.

With an utterly free spirit like yours, some people see you as flaky. But creative, perceptive-as-heck, and eerily wise is more like it. You see the good in everyone, which could make your dating life a bit, well, uneven. But you always land on your feet with your humor, kindness, (and who-knows-what-from-beyond) as your guide.

Feb 13, 2004

Pink Chiffon

I'm getting hooked to the tickle tests by Emode. Look what my fave color says about me.

There's nothing saccharine about you — your sweetness is one hundred percent natural! A gentle, thoughtful romantic like you must be paired with a color that's soft and warm — but still has a subtle sophisticated sheen. That's why Pink Chiffon is the perfect color for you! You're probably known for making the most of every situation and trying to see the best in people. But while you may be cheerful and strong innocent at times, you're nobody's fool. You may see the world through rose-colored glasses, but you can still see, after all.

While you make wise insights time after time, it's probably your good nature and perpetual optimism that are what you're known for and what make you a joy to be around. Even those who sometimes make fun of your Pollyanna-like proclamations will turn to you when they need a friend and some cheering up. So keep pink, Chiffon. With you around, the world's a better place.


yeah, right im miss pink chiffon. so girly. but i like it though. like some sweety-softy-twinka-little-thing. which im not. or maybe i am.

Feb 9, 2004

Im punishing myself for using too much of my time infront of the computer. Imagine going home from work form 4 pm till 1 am, plus a grueling 2 hours of overtime. by then I reach home at 4 in the morning, and still the first thing that I do upon getting inside the house is to click the switch of the CPU and monitor. there. im crazy thinking i could relax my overly exhausted body by giving myself a 2 hr meet with my beloved computer. ugh. now, my eyes are sunk with black circles around it. i looked like a zombie walking around the mall early this afternoon.worst, i almost fainted in the church. nauseus, dizzy, the world infront of me was spinning very slowly. ugh. and still im here, blogging this whole thing instead of sleeping.

so the remedy-one good book. i miss reading. for me the glory of reading is enjoying some good adventure while putting myself to sleep without even trying to. a cure for both my insomnia and internet addiction.

and the punishment- no buying of internet cards, no reloading for my celfone.
which means, no googling over jerry yans pix, no reading of the latest gossips and news about the f4. thats the saddest part.

conclusion- better finish the book " The Color of Water". then go get the books i ordered from Booksale.com.

Feb 2, 2004

Heroes

There are people you meet that will change you forever. About how you view life. And friends. And God. Sometimes when I'm in my lowest moments, I breathe not to console my dreary spirit, but to wallow more into the pain. And just as you are to breathe again, to fall again, there are people who'll teach you to stand up and fight. The lesson they teach is to fight. And if you lose, you lose fighting. The dignity you'll gain and the blessing from GOd. My real friends turned personal heroes. And now more than ever, I miss them with all of my heart! :)

Jan 28, 2004

im whacking my brain trying to understand html and how it works. crazy me, but i really want to make this site a lot more interesting. I guess ill continue this tom. there so many mosquitoes, i can barely take it anymore. they've sucked more blood than i can ever imagine. besides my moms awake already.

Jan 26, 2004

Sense of discipline. That is something I dont want to lack these days. When everything seems to be within so much of my reach, w/ the new credit card, I feel as if I have to get more and more, amass so many things which I think is not quite important. Like when I want to buy the shoes I've been eyeing for a month now. My heart tells me that I can buy it, charged to my credit card, that easy, that fast. Then I remember that I'll be enslaving myself to work just to pay off bills. I don't wanna go on everyday thinking I am in debt of this huge amount. This early, I feel that credit card can never be my best bud. Well, yes, I admit I can buy stuffs I couldnt afford to pay in cash. But really using it? As in shopping gallore, or buying on impulse, I don't think so. This I have to say to myself over and over again- "its ok, its not that important ...". Which leads me again to the the idea that I kinda hate malls too. They remind us to acquire more and more goods. And poor us, we succumb fast. Malls definitely remind us of how little we have so that we can buy more.. and well yeah so little I have. And still I dont think I can live w/o any mall around. Ha ha ha. Funny. Its a cycle, a whole pinpointing to which is the real evil- the credit card, the mall, or myself. Totally confusing.

The one good thing I bought using my credit card was.......the NOkia 6220 celfone. YEhey! I cannot believe I'll ever have this kind of phone. It's so cool. It has a camera, a radio and ofcourse, a video and voice recorder. Its amazing. I'm so hooked discovering every feature ,every detail of my new phone. I read the manual from start to finish, watched the Nokia info CD, and then I got as many infos on how to fully maximize it. Well I've come across slighly difficult terminologies, but what the heck, I’ve got the phone! Yehey, I love it. I bid goodbye to my NOkia 3310, a gift from Daddy. Im not gonna sell it though, it has sentimental value. It'll stay inside one my boxes.

Jan 18, 2004

Another Day

Another Day

Swiftly,
the light of day begins it rebirth
as the sun, in its gold-fringed glory,
dawns with anticipation.
I watch this breath-taking moment,
when the first rays of sunlight
radiate clear, dazzling colors,
I know that today lives,
as a fresh beginning,
full of challenges and promises.
I will seize Today with hope
and I will feel limitless no more.

My eyes gaze upon this gift-
the golden yellow immersed in the
green shade of the trees,
flowing and cascading hope.
Different hues in astounding beauty
give warmth and life.
Sunrise,
a single moment of watching you,
shal forever be imprinted in my heart,
indelibly marked upon my soul!
So long as you meet me everyday
I will yearn to smile and be free!
Oh sunrise, the sunrise
I so dearly adore!

angie

SY 1998

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Its a brand new year! Well, new beginnings. I wont start by putting new years resolutions. Doesnt work for me. Ive tried it for roughly 20 times, <> It s better to live one day at a time, try to be the best person i could each day. Anyway, Ive neglected blogging for a couple of weeks. Thank God our computer at home is now working. And well, here I am.

Dec 27, 2003

Christmas Eve

Sadly, I spent my christmas in the office... again. So 2 years in a row. "What's so sad about it if you're earning big bucks for it?", my mind was telling me. I dont know, I just wanna feel the holidays, be with my family. But yeah, there goes my christmas wish. Ugh. Christmas eve? I was speaking w/ a Brit, not caring about the terms CPT, QUALITY..dios ko, paki ko!! It's Christmas!!! And Im stuck here in the office and the one sure hope that ive been waiting for < VTO>, wala na, thanks to my mediocre typing skills- pati sa pagtawag sa qdesk, ang bagal!! What's worst was that when i got home, everyone was soundlessly asleep. as in naghihilik.. how about my noche buena? And all this time, I've been thinking of spending it with my family...uhmmm.


So I went to the kitchen, got a plateful of carbonarra and a slice of cake. I ate, staring at the blank TV in front of me. "Is it really Christmas?" I thought to myself. The next thing I knew, I was talking with Kathy over the phone, while scrumptiously eating. At least there's a friend who share the same woes with me. I slept at 5.



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The one good thing that happened was-- we were off friday and saturday, meaning I could go to the f4 concert without any hassles!!! Yes!! The morning of the 24th, I was such a pest calling & texting Jhing, asking favors for a swap of offs. I was willing to trade my Christmas day off for Dec 26. that's how desperrate I was. In the end, I learned that Jhing was off that day. Was i devastated? No, ofcourse not, that was an understatement! I want to cry so much, to kill Ryan Gomez< for the whole set up of scheds>, to strangle Joed Serano < for pushing thru a new year's concert!>,!!! I was literally in tears..poor me..

So one couldn't imagine what I felt when Esti came over with a piece of paper in hand. asking me pointblank w/c schedule do I prefer- a friday off <:'[[]*&*%^#%]]-=0-9\\@#!!!!>? all I heard was a FRIDAY OFF. It was such a miracle. really..I was speechless.

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With everything that had hapened, was the concert worth it? It sure was. Im so inlove w/ Jerry Yan!!
But what was notable that night too was ken!! He looked amazingly handsome. Its like you're seeing him for the first time. He was all aglow last night. They said that there's gonna be a concert again next year!!
Well, next year, here I come!!







Dec 22, 2003

dreamer

I woke up today smiling--I dreamt of f4! first time!! I remember falling asleep last night while reading the YES mag i bought, ofcourse the articles i read was about the f4. From there, I was transprted to a house where I together w/ 3 friends w/c I dont remember, were seated in the living room, discussing plans w/ jerry, lei, vanness and ken. We were thinking of a gimik, where to go, at what time. ha ha ha :D It was crazy really, but seriously it made me happy, made my world "brighter"... :) and made me think that dec 26 is nearing, and I dont even have the money to buy the ticket that I want < which is P8,000> Gud luck talaga sa life ko..the whole thing is crazy, who would ever think of moving the Feb concert to Dec? Didnt they know that most of the fans are youngsters- teenagers who are so dependent on their parents and ofcourse, there are those a bit older fans, I included- those whose who think that a credit card would solve every major prob in their world.. yes, that's me.. and im broke < i bought christmas gifts for my 6 inaanaks!>

That Im broke and a major F4 freak doesnt go together, I know.. especially now that the concert is 4 days away.
Im totally into this and right now, dreaming wont even suffice to how much I wanted to be there in the concert.

Dec 16, 2003

queen of discontent

We celebrated one of my colleagues birthday at digi cafe last friday...slept at around 6:30 and woke up at 12. Watched a bit of TV then slept again. The phone rang...its rio and yes, the Christmas party for the children...I almost forgot..So, I spent the rest of the day preparing gifts and then co-hosting the christmas party. It was fun. About a hundred children were present. There were games, dance & song numbers, prizes and ofcourse lots of food- w/c unfortunately, we didnt get to eat. Its ok though..I felt happy. The best part, the one that the children loved best was the gift-giving. We let them write their wishes a week ago and thanks to the sponsors who bought those gifts for them. How simple their wishes were, so simple it made me feel guilty. I hold the world title for Queen of Discontent. And yes, the whole thing was totally uplifting. How ironic- it made me feel uplifted and guilty at the same time! God almost always let us learn in the simplest of ways. And if simplicity means your one big wish is to have " a small pencil box", then really, i wonder now what kind of person i am...

Dec 3, 2003

so worth it

So many wonderful things have gone by..I still couldnt believe that I have actually seen Dao and Lei in person..I have never shouted so much in my entire life until that night..my vocal chords felt like it was gonna snap...I have never thought that P500 would be so priceless..Its actually the price I did pay to get a moment i would never forget...yeah right im totally, undeniably an F4 freak..and the concert? It was a gift for myself...everything was so worth it..
Now, the more I have to save up for the next year's concert...I cant wait. :)

Nov 25, 2003

newbie

yes, just got an idea from my friend..i think this is cool and im willing to try it out