august 19, 2004

as i grow older, i have come to appreciate and love my parents more. never mind the days when i was slapped because i didnt eat vegetables or i didnt wear the dress my mom wanted me to wear. or the times my sisters and i were fighting, kicking and boxing each other over some stupid things. or the times when we watched tv on a school day. or back in teenage days wherein i was grounded because i sneaked with my girlfriends for a gimik at greenhills. its all so subtle, the way ive come to change my view about my parents over the years. we think we know them enough when we're little. they love us, and that was all. when we finally know how immeasurable love is, or how complicated the word love is, we'll know better. there are pieces of them we dont understand. their childhood for instance. or their thoughts. their feelings. while i know my parents are not perfect, i know they tried. and that has made the difference to me- to know that they try to be the best.

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here is a book that would likely decode da vinci's.

amy welborn's de-coding da vinci

August 8, 2004

the one person that surprises me the most is no other than myself. sometimes we do certain things just for the heck and fun of it. well for me though, my friends has got to be the biggest part or influence. how do you deal with friends who are so fun, cool, confident and downright adventurous anyway? you become a part of them, you have connected in someway or another and made you do fun things that you were forever dreaming of doing but never had the guts to do so. so when ruchie and kira decided to walk on stage to sing, ( after a long day of work, we went to makati republic to unwind), i knew they had me going. kathy and i were roaring with laughter at first. but when kathy heard a favorite, she just ran on stage and left me strucked with surprise. i watched them three singing- ruchie looking like an all time performer doing the eyes-closing-thing while singing! while kira and kathy doing their best to sing, being the chuwariwariwaps when the moment arose. ha ha ha! they looked outrageously funny! i did not mention that the place wasnt even half filled. there were less than fifty people there so it didnt matter that I followed them on stage, grabbed the microphone with my shaking hands and sit uncomfortably on the high chair and did my best to sing insensitive and runaway! and there were a couple more songs that i sang (well i hope it did sound singing) with them. and i knew it was enough. after that, my insides were aching from laughing and yet the long exhausting day of work suddenly gone. vanished. and thats just with one night of unwinding, surprises, singing, bonding and most of all friendship.

august 5, 2004

sometimes i forget that time flies by so fast. it just seems yesterday when i was so "gaga" over the f4 especially jerry yan. i was getting all infos about them thru the net, joining fan groups, getting anything that has f4 logo on it, including meteor garden seasons 1 and 2, meteor rain series, their albums, vcd concerts, f4 magazines, songbooks, memorabilias- buttons, pins. name it. wallpapers. i did make albums, scrapbooks (print artist) even. it was my life that i have to be in their concerts, shouting like a loose teenager having the grandest day in her life. i even named my blog after their show, claiming that im a catcher of meteors. not to mention my sudden choice of buying bench products...oh how high school can one be.. i was known to be the f4 fanatic to my colleagues and friends. and i lived it.

now, ive missed whats going on in their lives. i havent been able to login to my groups. i do check out stardust from time to time though. its ok . i know im bound to be a forever fan though not the die-hard fan i used to be. i still love to ogle at jerry yans pix. and in doing so, i am taken back to a time where life was full of expectations, frenzy and obsession.. and i cant help but laugh.