im whacking my brain trying to understand html and how it works. crazy me, but i really want to make this site a lot more interesting. I guess ill continue this tom. there so many mosquitoes, i can barely take it anymore. they've sucked more blood than i can ever imagine. besides my moms awake already.

Sense of discipline. That is something I dont want to lack these days. When everything seems to be within so much of my reach, w/ the new credit card, I feel as if I have to get more and more, amass so many things which I think is not quite important. Like when I want to buy the shoes I've been eyeing for a month now. My heart tells me that I can buy it, charged to my credit card, that easy, that fast. Then I remember that I'll be enslaving myself to work just to pay off bills. I don't wanna go on everyday thinking I am in debt of this huge amount. This early, I feel that credit card can never be my best bud. Well, yes, I admit I can buy stuffs I couldnt afford to pay in cash. But really using it? As in shopping gallore, or buying on impulse, I don't think so. This I have to say to myself over and over again- "its ok, its not that important ...". Which leads me again to the the idea that I kinda hate malls too. They remind us to acquire more and more goods. And poor us, we succumb fast. Malls definitely remind us of how little we have so that we can buy more.. and well yeah so little I have. And still I dont think I can live w/o any mall around. Ha ha ha. Funny. Its a cycle, a whole pinpointing to which is the real evil- the credit card, the mall, or myself. Totally confusing.

The one good thing I bought using my credit card was.......the NOkia 6220 celfone. YEhey! I cannot believe I'll ever have this kind of phone. It's so cool. It has a camera, a radio and ofcourse, a video and voice recorder. Its amazing. I'm so hooked discovering every feature ,every detail of my new phone. I read the manual from start to finish, watched the Nokia info CD, and then I got as many infos on how to fully maximize it. Well I've come across slighly difficult terminologies, but what the heck, I’ve got the phone! Yehey, I love it. I bid goodbye to my NOkia 3310, a gift from Daddy. Im not gonna sell it though, it has sentimental value. It'll stay inside one my boxes.

Another Day

Another Day

Swiftly,
the light of day begins it rebirth
as the sun, in its gold-fringed glory,
dawns with anticipation.
I watch this breath-taking moment,
when the first rays of sunlight
radiate clear, dazzling colors,
I know that today lives,
as a fresh beginning,
full of challenges and promises.
I will seize Today with hope
and I will feel limitless no more.

My eyes gaze upon this gift-
the golden yellow immersed in the
green shade of the trees,
flowing and cascading hope.
Different hues in astounding beauty
give warmth and life.
Sunrise,
a single moment of watching you,
shal forever be imprinted in my heart,
indelibly marked upon my soul!
So long as you meet me everyday
I will yearn to smile and be free!
Oh sunrise, the sunrise
I so dearly adore!

angie

SY 1998

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Its a brand new year! Well, new beginnings. I wont start by putting new years resolutions. Doesnt work for me. Ive tried it for roughly 20 times, <> It s better to live one day at a time, try to be the best person i could each day. Anyway, Ive neglected blogging for a couple of weeks. Thank God our computer at home is now working. And well, here I am.

Christmas Eve

Sadly, I spent my christmas in the office... again. So 2 years in a row. "What's so sad about it if you're earning big bucks for it?", my mind was telling me. I dont know, I just wanna feel the holidays, be with my family. But yeah, there goes my christmas wish. Ugh. Christmas eve? I was speaking w/ a Brit, not caring about the terms CPT, QUALITY..dios ko, paki ko!! It's Christmas!!! And Im stuck here in the office and the one sure hope that ive been waiting for < VTO>, wala na, thanks to my mediocre typing skills- pati sa pagtawag sa qdesk, ang bagal!! What's worst was that when i got home, everyone was soundlessly asleep. as in naghihilik.. how about my noche buena? And all this time, I've been thinking of spending it with my family...uhmmm.


So I went to the kitchen, got a plateful of carbonarra and a slice of cake. I ate, staring at the blank TV in front of me. "Is it really Christmas?" I thought to myself. The next thing I knew, I was talking with Kathy over the phone, while scrumptiously eating. At least there's a friend who share the same woes with me. I slept at 5.



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The one good thing that happened was-- we were off friday and saturday, meaning I could go to the f4 concert without any hassles!!! Yes!! The morning of the 24th, I was such a pest calling & texting Jhing, asking favors for a swap of offs. I was willing to trade my Christmas day off for Dec 26. that's how desperrate I was. In the end, I learned that Jhing was off that day. Was i devastated? No, ofcourse not, that was an understatement! I want to cry so much, to kill Ryan Gomez< for the whole set up of scheds>, to strangle Joed Serano < for pushing thru a new year's concert!>,!!! I was literally in tears..poor me..

So one couldn't imagine what I felt when Esti came over with a piece of paper in hand. asking me pointblank w/c schedule do I prefer- a friday off <:'[[]*&*%^#%]]-=0-9\\@#!!!!>? all I heard was a FRIDAY OFF. It was such a miracle. really..I was speechless.

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With everything that had hapened, was the concert worth it? It sure was. Im so inlove w/ Jerry Yan!!
But what was notable that night too was ken!! He looked amazingly handsome. Its like you're seeing him for the first time. He was all aglow last night. They said that there's gonna be a concert again next year!!
Well, next year, here I come!!

dreamer

I woke up today smiling--I dreamt of f4! first time!! I remember falling asleep last night while reading the YES mag i bought, ofcourse the articles i read was about the f4. From there, I was transprted to a house where I together w/ 3 friends w/c I dont remember, were seated in the living room, discussing plans w/ jerry, lei, vanness and ken. We were thinking of a gimik, where to go, at what time. ha ha ha :D It was crazy really, but seriously it made me happy, made my world "brighter"... :) and made me think that dec 26 is nearing, and I dont even have the money to buy the ticket that I want < which is P8,000> Gud luck talaga sa life ko..the whole thing is crazy, who would ever think of moving the Feb concert to Dec? Didnt they know that most of the fans are youngsters- teenagers who are so dependent on their parents and ofcourse, there are those a bit older fans, I included- those whose who think that a credit card would solve every major prob in their world.. yes, that's me.. and im broke < i bought christmas gifts for my 6 inaanaks!>

That Im broke and a major F4 freak doesnt go together, I know.. especially now that the concert is 4 days away.
Im totally into this and right now, dreaming wont even suffice to how much I wanted to be there in the concert.

queen of discontent

We celebrated one of my colleagues birthday at digi cafe last friday...slept at around 6:30 and woke up at 12. Watched a bit of TV then slept again. The phone rang...its rio and yes, the Christmas party for the children...I almost forgot..So, I spent the rest of the day preparing gifts and then co-hosting the christmas party. It was fun. About a hundred children were present. There were games, dance & song numbers, prizes and ofcourse lots of food- w/c unfortunately, we didnt get to eat. Its ok though..I felt happy. The best part, the one that the children loved best was the gift-giving. We let them write their wishes a week ago and thanks to the sponsors who bought those gifts for them. How simple their wishes were, so simple it made me feel guilty. I hold the world title for Queen of Discontent. And yes, the whole thing was totally uplifting. How ironic- it made me feel uplifted and guilty at the same time! God almost always let us learn in the simplest of ways. And if simplicity means your one big wish is to have " a small pencil box", then really, i wonder now what kind of person i am...

so worth it

So many wonderful things have gone by..I still couldnt believe that I have actually seen Dao and Lei in person..I have never shouted so much in my entire life until that night..my vocal chords felt like it was gonna snap...I have never thought that P500 would be so priceless..Its actually the price I did pay to get a moment i would never forget...yeah right im totally, undeniably an F4 freak..and the concert? It was a gift for myself...everything was so worth it..
Now, the more I have to save up for the next year's concert...I cant wait. :)

newbie

yes, just got an idea from my friend..i think this is cool and im willing to try it out