i am feeling so positive. i feel i can conquer the world and all its craziness and hardships. and sometimes too, i feel that im only just ready to start my life. i feel i know what i need to do, to live life a hundred times better. i am driven to make things happen, for plans to push thru, for relationships to grow, for trying opportunities that come my way, to set my life into the right place. i am forgetting wasted time and money, missed opportunites and screwed plans. each day, we are given a chance to lead better lives and this what makes us blessed. if i count the number of times i have failed given all those chances, i would have won the loser-of-the-century-award. but loser as i am, i am still smelling hope, freedom and love.


i am surpised by myself lately. i am now wanting something so purely, i can't help but be happy.